went to visit *him* and things were jus puuuurfect.
i bite him on the bottom lip to show affection because kissing’s too much. and he said i tasted like pecan pie; i think i can deal.
went to the strip club (for the first time ever) yesterday and was awed by all the marvelous, wondrous things. things=boobies.
it really opened my eyes to female body types too. not everyone has the standard well endowed chest, smaller waist and round, pokey buttocks. huh…who knew?
i know you’re not supposed to be super attached to money and everything but it’s so nice. the amount security i feel when i see 900+ in my checking accnt is unmatched. is that sad or…?
that’s why i’m super scared of getting out of the military!! idk what i wanna go to school for (what i want a career in) but i want to make mula! the military gives me what i need (health, housing, money) but this is not me. i recently had a talk with one of my friends and he expressed that he could be in LA with a low paying job, studio apartment, eating ramen every night, as long as he was doing what he loves. but i need extra money to help out my family, and save for a house, and long term goals and yadda yadda. Sooo onto what I love…. as much as i love music, i don’t have a lot of experience with it; my theory skill is mediocre, and history wise….pffff!!
i DON’T want to be an uneducated musician (even though people get away with it all the time/people don’t care). and i could start now i guess but i’m scattered brained and too concerned with work/fitness/being a stellar airman and really all that’s an excuse because i’m scared. i’m scared that it still wont lead me anywhere so i need to find a backup.
this post was an all-over-the-place hot mess. forgive me.